ugh

Starting weight: 218.6 (10/28/2009)
Last week: 192.0
This week: 192.4
Difference: 0.4
Total: -26.2

41 week challenge update:
36 weeks left
28.2  pounds to go

This last week was a rough week for me. My stomach was not functioning normally (and I mean that as compared to my personal normal), I stayed home from work sick for two days, and I'm stressed with all this moving stuff. Not only am I working on moving into my new apartment, but we are moving offices at work. Ugh!

Moving always stresses me out, but in some ways I feel as though the stress of this move is being prolonged by the fact that it is a gradual move instead of moving everything at once or even in large batches. I picked up my keys Friday, and have been figuring out what to move/how to move since. Its becoming all consuming in my brain. Also, in a lot of ways I feel like I'm doing this backwards because I'm moving a lot of random odds and ends in first instead of all the big stuff first. What's kind of funny is that I've had my apartment keys for just about a week and I feel like I've been dealing with this apartment stuff for weeks and weeks...though in a way I guess I have because I've been researching things to buy and slowly accumulating things all month.

After work I'm going to the apartment to test the new keys I had made, and drop off some items I bought yesterday after work (garbage can, ziploc bags, garbage bags, toilet paper, dish drainer). Fun stuff huh? lol. I'm hoping that over the weekend we can determine when we are going to be able to move the really big stuff (large rug for living room, bed frame and mattress, and dresser) and I may start sorting through the kitchen stuff to make containers lighter so my mom and I can move them.

The move at work has been gradual too because we don't actually have full access to the new space yet. We've moved a ton of files over to my supervisors office a) to just get some of the stuff moved and b) because she has the extra space in her office to store the stuff. Once we get our new space access date, we'll work on packing up the rest of the stuff in the office to get it ready for facilities to move over there.

Aside from all the moving stuff, I've definitely been fighting against my emotional eating tendencies. I keep wanting to go out to eat after my meetings to "reward" myself for going to the meetings, for doing well, for trying, whatever.... I don't want to go out during the week because then I "have to" count the points, but if I go for dinner after my meeting, it "doesn't count." A small part of this is tied to my not wanting to go back to my parents' house. So many times I catch myself thinking that if I was eating dinner in my own place I'd be able to eat so much better, but since I'm not and I know the bad choice I'll be making at the house, why not just go make a similar choice at a restaurant? I think another part of this mentality is from my wanting full control of my food access and storage and cooking.
I need to do some internal work to sort through this and work it all out, but I know I don't have the right environment to do that right now, so I'll have to wait until I'm in my new apartment full time.